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My AMAZING wife! December 12, 2008 at 11:23 am

For those of you who weren’t at 121CC on Sunday, my wife told our story to the congregation. She did an amazing job, and I am very confident that her words encouraged someone who has been through something similar or will encourage someone who may go through something similar in the future.

You can listen to the sermon at 121cc.com.  She shares at 45:28 in the sermon:

Grief to Joy – 121CC (click to listen or right click and save as to download)

And below is what she presented:

When the opportunity came for me to share today, my first thought was no way- I can’t get up and speak in front of everyone; this is not my thing…as those of you who know me are well aware. But the Lord put it on my heart that I needed to share our experience with you. So with His prompting, here I am…

In November 2006, our lives were forever changed. I was 30 weeks pregnant and went to a routine doctor’s appointment; me and my husband, Troy were shocked and devastated to find there was no heartbeat in the baby girl I had been carrying for several months. The feelings of sadness, questioning, guilt and anger were overwhelming. I knew that the Lord had a purpose in all of it but I desperately wanted our baby to be here with us. I wanted our son to have a sibling, my arms ached to hold her and I just missed her. The weeks and months to follow were the most difficult time I have ever been through or that me, my husband and son have experienced as a family. My husband and I went through that Christmas season in a fog, doing the best we could at the time to keep it together and make it meaningful and enjoyable for our 2 1/2 year old son, Jacob. I wasn’t sure how or when I would ever feel like myself again. I wanted to know what went wrong in my pregnancy to cause this to happen and though I really wanted there to be an explanation somehow, there were no definite answers to be found. During this time, I clung to verses in Psalms, Isaiah and Job. I knew the Lord was carrying us through each day but I loved and missed our baby so much, I couldn’t bear the thought of her not being here with us. The Lord grew me through this experience and showed me how to truly trust and walk with Him. With the body of Christ surrounding and ministering to us; we did make it through this difficult time. We were fortunate to receive wise godly counsel, walk through this experience with close friends, and grow closer to one another and to our son and most of all, we grew deeper in our relationship with Christ.

I began to try to focus on anything good that came from losing our baby girl. At first it was hard to think how anything positive could come out of this situation but I tried to think of as many things as I could, I journaled many of my every day thoughts, I learned how to ‘be real’ with myself and others, I poured myself into my home and served the Lord wholeheartedly. All of these things led me to experience peace and joy in Christ and a hope that I found only in Him. The joy I felt in the midst of my sorrow was like nothing I have ever known or believe is possible without Christ. Through this process, he completely restored my broken heart and strengthened and sustained me in the midst of everything. Though our baby Jordan will always be part of our family and this is still a process we are walking through as we grieve this loss, I rejoice in the fact that we will meet her one day in heaven.

One hope we had during this time was that if it was His desire, that He would prepare me for another pregnancy and that if it was his will, he would bless us with another child. This year he chose to give us another precious gift in our baby girl, Julia. We are thankful everyday that she is here with us and our joy is made even more complete in this addition to our family. His plans are always perfect and though we don’t understand why things happen the way they do, we know his love for us is greater than anything we could ever imagine. Though I would not have chosen this to happen the way it did, I am thankful that the Lord turned my grief into joy. As it says in Psalm 30:5, ‘weeping may remain for a night, but rejoicing comes in the morning.’

I would like to leave a verse with you today that is meaningful to me and says so much about the hope and joy that can only be found in the gift God has given us in His son, Jesus Christ. In Romans 15:13 it says, ‘May the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace as you trust in him, so that you may overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.’

Thank you D’Anna for sharing our story and for being so strong and impacting those around you, me included!  I love you!

One Response to “My AMAZING wife!”

  1. Troy,
    D'anna did a great job. I was glad to be able to hear the full story. I'm so glad for the way things are going for ya'll now.